HEALING HEARTS

A BEAUTIFUL FRIEND OF MINE POSTED THIS ON HER BLOG TODAY. IT WAS EXACTLY WHAT IVE BEEN NEEDING TO HEAR THE PAST 2 YEARS...

The biggest temptation when we have been hurt is to close off our heart. Pain and hurt can come from just about anywhere, but it's usually the relationships that mean SOMETHING to us that cause us the most pain, that is how it has ALWAYS been with me anyway.

And when we get hurt, we want to NEVER be hurt again and protect ourselves. We want to wall ourselves in, but it also walls LIFE out. We might even try to "not care" anymore because CARING is why we got hurt in the first place, but these are all paths to loneliness, depression, anger, resentment, isolation and a dead heart.

Even when we are TRYING to do these things harmful things to ourselves and our relationships, God is still there. He stays after us to love again, to laugh again and to LIVE our lives out. He doesn't want little people with stone hearts, scowls on their faces and the absence of all joy. And believe me, it's NOT fun, I've tried it. I'm embarrassed to say that I've tried it WAY more than once too. I'm a slow learner. I tend to keep trying MY way until I just about can't take any more. Then I finally turn to the Lord and get the break-through, renewed hope and restoration I was so desperate for.

I want to encourage you to take heart, out of pain comes power for us if we choose to keep LIVING. Pain is a funny thing, not ha ha funny, but peculiar, it can actually take us to higher levels of glory and faith when we abide in God through it rather than trying to muscle our own way.

Psalm 147:3 He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

I remember once when I went to go encourage an elderly family member who was just home from the hospital. She ended up encouraging ME, even though she was the one who was facing a terminal disease. THIS is the kind of POWER that pain can produce. It's not something that we can see with our naked eye, but it's a deeping in our heart. Like we are all very shallow pools, but life comes with pains and hurt and our pools are dug out deeper and can hold more and more. But of WHAT it holds is what matters. Is your pool holding more and more pain? Or have you given that pain over to God for Him to do a wonderful work with it? With God, we are filled with understanding, empathy, sympathy and that beautiful glory that shines deep from the heart which is only purified by pains fire.

Some of the best things come from great pain, a mother laboring to deliver a child. The hard work to achieve the status of an olympian. A tender and kind heart, from being worked over with meat tenderizer! That's me.

God loves you too much to leave you where you are. He is constantly working to pull us up higher, to greater and greater things, even if it doesn't LOOK that great now, trust Him, and close your eyes if you have to, just don't close out your heart.

John 16:22 Therefore you now have sorrow, but I will see you again, and your heart will rejoice, and no one will take your joy away from you

I love you and I'm praying for you, for God's love to wrap around you like a big poofy blanket and for His amazing peace to rest upon your anxious heart.

-CLC

the last time...

I hate the fact that I have to drive the back roads behind my ex-boyfriends house so that I am not tempted to look and see if he is home on my way home...

I hate the fact that I expect to see him driving around town...

I hate the fact that when I go to grab a t-shirt out of my clean laundry stack I always grab his shirt that he kept at my house...

I hate the fact that MY car reminds me of HIM...

And why in the heck do I wish that he'd be in my bed with me for just one more night?

Just to reassure myself and once again remind myself of the things I passed up I will compile a list..maybe for future reference. But I'm claiming this the last post "deep thoughts" on him.

-Do you want to date someone that is all about them self?

-Do you want to date a guy that believes you watching him play 5 hours of Xbox is a fun Friday night?

-Do you want to get involved with a guy that's parents have no interest in getting to know you better or even talking to you after you've dated 7 months?

-Do you want to date or get involved with a guy that doesn't have the same religious beliefs as you or even make a point to go to church with you?

-Do you want to date a guy that is a MAN but still has no responsibility because his parents do everything for him and enable him?

-Do you want to date a guy with no vision in life or goals?

-Do you want to date a guy you cant talk to about everything?

-Do you want to date a guy that doesn't make you feel appreciated at all?

There is better and the Lord and has promised you better!

He hasn't forgotten you or forsaken you. Maybe this relationship was a test and a lesson. Don't be bitter and don't hate that person that hurt you forever. He was sent in your life for a reason and you were in his for a reason as well. We might never know why and I am not asking for answers anymore as to why the Lord sen HIM and how he could allow him to hurt me so bad. I am past that, I am not looking for answers I am looking for healing in the Lord and at the future. The Lord binds the broken hearted.

to healing hearts,

CLC

Fix Me Please

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

stuck somewhere between dreams and reality..

Psalm 34:18 The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit!

I'm a little broken down right now. Its a vicious cycle and I feel like I am getting now where. I don't have a friend in the world to depend on right now and things just aren't what I thought they should be. But I guess life usually isn't. Some say happiness is a action and a state of mind, something you choose. But its not always easy to make yourself feel the way you ought to or the way you want to feel. I freak out about things, cry, pray, cry, then read a book. Last week this helped, I don't know if its because its me escaping reality or its relief. Guess I will just keep praying like crazy. This too shall soon pass!

praying for me, praying for you...
always yours
Casey Lynn

Broken Heart

TODAYS BLOG THAT MY FRIEND KANDEE JOHNSON WROTE:


Number of emails from people with broken heart: 874,498,387

And millions of heart are hurting and broken, in the world right now.

I hope this little post will help some hearts...somewhere.

SCENE 1: you have just been left with a heart that feels so broken, you just want to sleep, you don't want to be awake and feel anything! You can't imagine how your life will go on with any kind of happiness without this person in your life. You are already imagining, that no one will ever be as great as them.

SCENE 2: you have been or are in an abusive relationship, someone that verbally abuses you (saying horrible hurtful things that will forever scar your heart), physically abuses you (hurting you in any way), mentally abuses you (controls you, manipulates situations, scares you, threatens you), or even sexually abuses you (any form of touching that you don't want).
now enters the voice of help!

For #1 with a
broken heart: No one that is willing to let you go or hurt your heart, or leave you...is good enough to EVER be the one to hold your precious heart in their hands. Someone that has no idea how amazing you are, how irreplaceable you are, how unique how adorable, how beautiful, how someone will come into your life and say, "I don't ever want to live without you in my life, and I'll never, ever think of leaving you!". Someone is going to adore how you laugh, love the sound of your voice, think that you make everything more fun, how you are the most amazing thing they've ever seen, that nothing could take them away from you. That they'd walk through fire, drive for hours, just to see your face.
If you ARE or WERE with someone that didn't realize you were the best thing on Earth....GOOD RIDDANCE!!! Because they don't deserve one more second of your time or tears!
You are one of a kind amazing! They way you say things, the way you laugh, the way you dance or sing, the funny things you so, the quirky things you do...these are all what someone is going to FALL HEAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE WITH!!! And if someone doesn't...DON'T waste your time with them...because the person that's going to LOVE all those things and you, is rejoicing that, that other person is out of the way, so they can come and find you!
Even though I don't normally listen to country music, I love the song, "God Bless the Broken Road" by Rascal Flatts
in the song it says,
"Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

This is beautiful....that each person that broke your heart, needed to get out of your life, so the right one, one that will never hurt you, can come into your life. They will adore you, cherish you, and gently hold your heart, and will go out of their way to make sure your heart is never hurt!
I've been hurt many times, I've been cheated on, dumped, I've been in abusive relationships, and I'm so glad I'm not in any of those anymore! I even dated a guy that told me how beautiful he thought other girls were and how he had "crushes" on them, in front of me! (oh brother!) Thank goodness I said "enough!", they dumped me, or I got the courage to leave them, and end that horrible time in my life!


Now for #2
an abusive relationship
If you are with someone that constantly hurts your feelings, makes you feel miserable, unhappy, stupid, ugly, sad, depressed, worthless...ANY one of those! That is not a soul mate....that is a mean mate!
And if you are with someone that hurts you, hits you, threatens you (with anything) scares you for any reason, (especially if they drink or do drugs...they will think even worse!).
I was in an abusive relationship, where I was afraid of everything, I was afraid to leave my house, I was told horrible things, I was threatened, and he had a huge anger problem, the police had to be called, I didn't have any money or any food to eat. And the horrible part was, I was so afraid to leave him, that he would be even more mad and find me. Or he would promise me he wouldn't do any of that again and he was sooooo sorry! WELL THAT'S THE ABUSIVE CYCLE!!! (THEY'RE MEAN, THEN THEY FEEL BAD, APOLOGIZE, SAY THEY WON'T DO IT AGAIN.....AND JUST WAIT...IT'S A GUARANTEE THEY'LL DO IT AGAIN! It just comes down to how long you're going to stay and keep going through that emotional cycle.


I prayed and asked God to get me out of there! And sure enough, it was by a miracle, we were getting kicked out of the apartment we lived in, I called my mom, she bought me a plane ticket, he even drove me to the airport, and once I was safely at my mom and dad's, I said, I can't come back. I's had enough! I knew, this wasn't how it was supposed to be. Your heart heart shouldn't hurt when you're in love!


So, to each of you precious souls...you were made so fantastically! You are funny, witty, brilliant, cute, adorable, you have your own style, your own way of making people's lives fun. People should want to be wherever you are....because wherever you are....life is more fun, because you are in it!


Don't settle...you deserve the best! And the best is waiting for this "broken heart" to be pointed in their direction, that whoever hurt you, is the Northern Star, that is pointing you right to the one that will NEVER, EVER hurt you.


And remember, your girlfriend, boyfriend, husband or wife....is not your whole world! They are there to support and be a companion, but remember, as soon as they get placed on a pedestal....that's a promise that you are putting them too high on your life list...and you're giving them control to definitely hurt you! Every human being at some point will disappoint you, hurt you, make you sad...they aren't perfect. The only person who's never stop loving me is God. Boyfriends, girlfriends, even husbands and wives (ha ha ha), may come and go...but God and your family will always be there love you!


I love you...and don't let another tear fall from your eyes. I wish I could be there to hug you and tell you, "No, rejoice that now, you're true soul mate, is free to find you! Be patient, they are on their way!"



huge love, chocolate and lots of love, typed with love, kandee