Isnt There

Just because you feel it doesn't mean its there!

I am tired of being told by you I am irreplaceable, I am everything you want, the one you want to marry, and the best thing that has ever happened to you. I actually believe it. I sat there and listened to your lies. I believed every word and bought in to every line. It doesn't disappoint me that it ends this way. I honestly don't have any attachment to you this time. It hurts me that I hurt myself again. That I let another person let me down. I use to be so good at protecting myself now the walls just crumble down. I'm done!

Never put faith in man, man will always disappoint you!

the last time...

I hate the fact that I have to drive the back roads behind my ex-boyfriends house so that I am not tempted to look and see if he is home on my way home...

I hate the fact that I expect to see him driving around town...

I hate the fact that when I go to grab a t-shirt out of my clean laundry stack I always grab his shirt that he kept at my house...

I hate the fact that MY car reminds me of HIM...

And why in the heck do I wish that he'd be in my bed with me for just one more night?

Just to reassure myself and once again remind myself of the things I passed up I will compile a list..maybe for future reference. But I'm claiming this the last post "deep thoughts" on him.

-Do you want to date someone that is all about them self?

-Do you want to date a guy that believes you watching him play 5 hours of Xbox is a fun Friday night?

-Do you want to get involved with a guy that's parents have no interest in getting to know you better or even talking to you after you've dated 7 months?

-Do you want to date or get involved with a guy that doesn't have the same religious beliefs as you or even make a point to go to church with you?

-Do you want to date a guy that is a MAN but still has no responsibility because his parents do everything for him and enable him?

-Do you want to date a guy with no vision in life or goals?

-Do you want to date a guy you cant talk to about everything?

-Do you want to date a guy that doesn't make you feel appreciated at all?

There is better and the Lord and has promised you better!

He hasn't forgotten you or forsaken you. Maybe this relationship was a test and a lesson. Don't be bitter and don't hate that person that hurt you forever. He was sent in your life for a reason and you were in his for a reason as well. We might never know why and I am not asking for answers anymore as to why the Lord sen HIM and how he could allow him to hurt me so bad. I am past that, I am not looking for answers I am looking for healing in the Lord and at the future. The Lord binds the broken hearted.

to healing hearts,

CLC

stuck somewhere between dreams and reality..

Psalm 34:18 The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit!

I'm a little broken down right now. Its a vicious cycle and I feel like I am getting now where. I don't have a friend in the world to depend on right now and things just aren't what I thought they should be. But I guess life usually isn't. Some say happiness is a action and a state of mind, something you choose. But its not always easy to make yourself feel the way you ought to or the way you want to feel. I freak out about things, cry, pray, cry, then read a book. Last week this helped, I don't know if its because its me escaping reality or its relief. Guess I will just keep praying like crazy. This too shall soon pass!

praying for me, praying for you...
always yours
Casey Lynn

Take A Hint?

I got really discourage today! Yesterday was a nightmare. It was the start of the summer semester, well kind of. Thursday was actually the "start" but I slept through both of my classes on accident...yeah great, I know! Well anyway I was at work today telling a guy friend of mine that had read a post I had posted on facebook about how horrible yesterday was and he simply told me it might be a hint..? For some reason I took it as take a hint and give up, quit school, its for your best interest! Now I know it wasnt probably meant in that way but WOW did it hurt. Of course I automatically start thinking, maybe he's right. Maybe I dont have what it takes. Who am I joking. I cant this, I cant that, Im not good enough etc. But then I thought to myself if everything was given to us in life and easy or we didnt have to work for anything then what would be the point in life? I believe nothing we do is ever in vein. For every action there is a reaction. So if your on the verge of giving up, or your thinking that these dreams you have just cant come true I say different!
There is a reason YOU have those specific dreams, goals, and doing what your doing now! Keep your hopes alive and your heart and chin even higher...No matter what is going on. Think of it as getting you stronger and more prepared for GREATNESS!!! I believe in you and love you, even if no one else told you that today..I did! Go take on the world! Your meant for greatness.

too high hopes, big dreams, and it all coming true
always yours
Casey Lynn

Lord Here I am Your Favorite One!

No struggle need ever again be pointless!

*Psalm 126:5-6 Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him.

No suffering need ever again be unending!

*Psalm 30:5 Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.

Hard days come and go but we have to remember and KNOW that God has a plan for me! And declare and KNOW that God WILL bring me through. It may seem hard at the time and confusing but HE is there. You are his most important child...do you really think he would forget about you...? No! He knew you even before you were born and knew the plans for your life. Have FAITH that there is something AMAZING in the works. Usually when we feel alone and lost HE is working overtime to make it all work. He never forgets, nor will he ever forget you.

Hang in there. Good things are coming!