FATE.....Is That You?

Today was another average day for the most part. I woke up uncertain what time I was suppose to be at work..of course after much scorning from myself for forgetting to bring home my work schedule I immediately text my co-worker to ask him what time I was suppose to come in. I wait and wait and wait. Was it 10:30 or 11:30 or was it 1:00? So I start getting ready. I was ready and left the house to be at work at 10:30when I get the text 11:30! Well great, now what!?! So I decided to go by the Starbucks near work and grab a cup of coffee until time to go in. I go and like most visit at Starbucks there are always a mixed crowd of people in there. Business people, college students studying, etc. I grab my coffee and sit down ready to enjoy the silence and peace of being alone and left with my thoughts until work until the man beside me strikes up conversation. Turns out he works at the hospital I work at and in the same building I do, as a matter of fact...right behind my office. WEIRD..I know! We make small talk and chat about sports and he mentions he's from out of town and just moved here...like as in a week ago. Really new to the area I'd say. Long story short we talk get to know each other and swap numbers before we depart in the promise of hanging out soon and showing him around. Times like these I don't think of it as a possible new boyfriend or even friend really. Lets face it I may never talk to the guy again. But it makes me wonder about FATE and how God places people in your life for a reason. Whether it be years or just a season, there is always a reason! And that's what keeps me excited in life...the unexpected wonderful things the Lord does day to day in our lives. Whether it be taking away or adding someone or something in our life, its all apart of his will and at just the right time sometimes you can see into what he's doing.

to fate, happiness, and hope for a bright future
Casey Lynn

Writing what I live...Living what I write

Feels like I am at a turning point in life. Things have got to change and get better. Nothing stays unsolved forever and people never stay miserable the rest of their life unless they choose so. These hards times are for a reason and it will all make sense one day. I am on the right path..Im trying, Im doing my best, Im trying to better myself, and most importantly I am seeking God in all of these hard and confusing times. He knows the answers and know knows my path. All I can ask for is strenght through it all.

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing...

No matter what you choose...right or left. Its your decision and you made it for a reason. There is a reason to everything in life and everything happens for a reason. Good things are coming your way and if you didn't get what you've been working for or expecting to receive that means there is bigger and better for you. Just wait!

expecting good things
Casey Lynn

Letters To Me

Dear You

Its time to change a few things in your life. Your outlook, your mindset, your thoughts, and your routine! Its time to start thinking about YOU and what YOU want and need (of course the Lord willing) and make it happen. The past few years a lot has changed. People have come and gone in your life and relationships both for the good and bad have left you empty or confused. Its time to be YOU..quit thinking about the past, quit wishing for things to change that cant, and to start being who you want to become and who you would want apart of your life! What happend in your past is not nearly as important as what is in your future! Like the old saying..Be the change you wish to see in the world. Its not about who has changed the most, who is more ahead in life, or who has set you back in your journey in life. Everyone gets where they are going at a different time and everything happens for a reason. There is detours and dead ends in life for a reason...to make you stronger, change your route, or to make you cherish the good. You might not know the outcome of this year and you might not know what you are suppose to be doing at exactly this moment in life but you do know not to put your life on hold because you don't know what will be. Your going to keep moving, keep hoping, and keep waiting. God loves you and he hasn't forgotten you! He has to have great plans for you to be prepairing you for this long. You are fearfully and wonderful made in the image of God, what could possibily hold you back? Not a bad break up! Not a lost friendship! Not harsh/discouraging words! NOT any situation you can come up with. You are a child of the most high God. He has promised you everything in him and you will get it and at just the right time. Until then stand tall, stand strong, keep trying, and NEVER give up. Good things are coming!!

too changes, my wildest dreams coming true, and being unstoppable and unforgetabble
always yours
CLC

Fix Me Please

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Is the in between pointless?

I hate spending the whole day alone, because Im given hours to think about and evaluate my life too much. The good seems alright, the bad seems worse, and the in between seems pointless. And that leaves me wondering where the heck I am!

I want to know what my future holds. ...I want to know who I'm going to marry and when and how many kids and what job I'll have and where I'll live and the color of the gutters on my house. I want to know all of that so I can stop worrying about where things are going to end up. I want to know that I'll graduate PTA school within a year like I have been aiming for for the past five years and that I will be good at it, and not only good at it but KNOW its where I belong. I want to know that I'll never be divorced and that my husband loves and adores me and admires the woman that I am..and my kids, I just want to know that they wont have any health problems that they will just be normal kids that I love more than anything and have the wonderful opportunity of parenting and teaching them things. I want to say that I will know that my life is going to end with the "happily ever after." But honestly I dont care for the "happily ever after" I just want the chance at making my life all that I dream for it to be! Is our greatest things just our dreams or can it be our reality?

I want and wish so much in my life, I'm setting these unreachable goals and I'm so mad at myself for not being able to reach them. Example: being happy for a week. They say happiness is a state of mind or a choice. Well I say sometimes its hard to do or be what you should.

Sometimes I wish that I could slip into a coma for just a few weeks. Just a week where I don't have to worry about anything....literally, nothing! Almost as though I could switch my brain to "OFF" and all I think about is who I want to be where I want to go in life. Then I can come back to life and just be recharged with this undying thrill for life and my calling. Just pick up where I left off and turn things around for the better...most of you say oh you just need a vacation, or oh thats life...suck it up. But.....

Wouldnt it be nice?


too hopes, dreams, and the fun stuff
Casey Lynn

Thoughts

Its funny the things we humans do...
Like how we hang on to the things we should let go first
How we hang on to the things that are all wrong for us.
Its always the things that hurt us most that we cling to for dear life.
The worst situations that make us feel completely wrong and forget who we are.
The ones that hurt us the most that we give the most to.
The ones that are all wrong for us but we are sure we can make them right.
And the ones that treat us like gold we throw away.
Whats the reasoning to the unexplained?

Seems like the relationships I never put fourth effort in were the ones that loved me the most. But the one I care so much about is the worst one. I started out not caring in the beginning of that one though...at what point did I start caring to the point of no return. Even when he showed his true colors and treated me the way he did I still couldn't walk away. What death trap is that and what finally wakes us up to realize this? Are men just really looking for emotionally detached women so its that much easier when it ends. Seems like they are never the one attached!

pray for me...
CLC