Reasonings

Dont let people that dont deserve you in the first place hurt your precious heart.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
— Marilyn Monroe

Fearfully & Wonderfully Made!

Heard some great encouraging words from a friend! Thought I'd repost for anyone that reads this.

Think about this, you are a specialist. You are not created to be all things to all people, but to be exactly you at exactly this time in history for exactly the special purpose God has for you! Wow?!Knowing this, that you are a specilist for a specific purpose...don't be awestruck by other people and try to copy them...then it ruins your "special-ness" (and yes, I'm pretty sure that is NOT a word) ha ha! But you get my drift...

What to see a miracle? Look at yourself. The Bible says, "you are fearfully and wonderfully made" Psalm 139:14. Why want to change that "wonderful" to a carbon copy of someone else?

God leads everyone in an individual way, that's why it's so interesting to hear someone's testimony...because they are ALL unique! God loves you just they way you are, but He also loves you too much to leave you the way you are...the Holy Spirit who is also called the Comforter is here to help us learn, grow, improve and become all that God wants for us! You don't have to go it alone...at any point! Huge love to all of you specialists!

Be you, your the only one like you out there...besides everyone else is taken =)

heres to you, heres to me,
always yours
Casey Lynn

seize the day

How do you choose between two bad things..

One you don't even know if you still love and the other one that just doesn't quite make you happy?

Do you choose the lesser of the two evils?

Or walk away before too much is invested..what could be worse than uncertainty and unhappiness?

I feel like I am in the dark on both situations!

Letters to the Sky

Show me the love you have for me Lord. I don't understand it at all and it doesn't make sense. How could you love a sinner like me. Father show me, let me experience your love.

Show me the plans you have for me Father. What is my purpose on the world Lord? I feel like I am suppose to be living a life with a purpose and significances. I feel like there is so much more for me to do then where I am now. What job do you have for me Lord.

Change me Father. Be the change in my life. I don't want a temporary fix I choose to do. I want your perfect and everlasting changes on my life.

Lord I ask you just guide me and direct my path. Weed out who I don't need apart of my life. Show me the path you have meant for me. I need your assurance and your hand on my life. I am so lost without you Father. I am tired of trying to figure it out on my own. Wrap your arms around me Lord, I need you!!

Isnt There

Just because you feel it doesn't mean its there!

I am tired of being told by you I am irreplaceable, I am everything you want, the one you want to marry, and the best thing that has ever happened to you. I actually believe it. I sat there and listened to your lies. I believed every word and bought in to every line. It doesn't disappoint me that it ends this way. I honestly don't have any attachment to you this time. It hurts me that I hurt myself again. That I let another person let me down. I use to be so good at protecting myself now the walls just crumble down. I'm done!

Never put faith in man, man will always disappoint you!

Finishing Last!?!

Finishing last in the race of life...?

Yep, how'd you guess? Definitely how I have been feeling lately. I know there is no set time you have to do anything in life but why do I feel so pressured?

The pressure list as follows...

college, marriage, to move out of my parents house, to have kids, to be "successful", to buy a house..the list goes on and on.

So since there is no deadline to meet any of these, why do I feel so pressured and feel last at achieving these. Everyone in my graduating class or my age has finished college, engaged, or married with kids.

What's wrong with me?

I know none of those give you eternal happiness or success but it still doesn't make me feel better about where I am in life. Everyone is engaged and married! I know your saying yeah and probably about half of them wishes they weren't or are unhappily married. Yeah well at least they had the opportunity and tried something! I'm to scared to even do that. I am to worried about is it right and does he really love me.

Marriage and engagement can and mostly does take a back seat to what I really want. Which is a career and to finish college and truly find my purpose in life. If I had just that it'd help things. I don't even know where to start with that one though. Besides praying, seriously I don't know where...

Unengaged, without kids, and still in school,

your Casey Lynn

Letters to the Sky

Dear God,

I come to you tonight asking you for help. I am so confused and so vulnerable right now. I feel like a kid that's played with fire and has been severely burned but cant quit playing with the fire. How can I heal when I keep playing with the fire. I have people in my life that I don't know if I should let go and move on or love and keep trying to make things work and continue to try to hide my hurt and unhappiness. These people aren't all bad and they are good people and i know you have placed them in my life for a reason. I just ask you for direction, I don't know what to do father.

I feel like i have lost my direction in life Father! Am I where you want me to be? Am I doing anything pleasing to you? Am I serving my purpose at all? What do you have for me to do here in this exact place and moment? Whats my purpose? I feel like I have lost all happiness and joy in the process also. Everyday is a struggle to find something to be happy about and stay positive. Who have I turned into? Is this who you want me to be? Change me Father and make me into what would please you. Replace my wants with yours Father, I am tired of doing things my way and I am tried of searching for hope.

I pray and seek true happiness. Lord I search for your answers and your truth. Lord I seek to learn and I want to learn so that I can be a better person. I can not go on another day in this world searching for happiness and hope any longer. I know there is no over the night cure but I ask for YOUR change in me. Lord teach me and show me, change me and make me, mold me into something new. This old me no longer wants to stay the same. I am tired of being complacent and I am tired of not growing. I want to be all that I can be and do all that you intended for me to do. Show me Father, I am asking you to send me. I'll go.

I ask and I am believing in you for healing, I pray for direction in my life for my purpose and your plan for me, I pray for a patient heart and the direction and peace from you to make the right decisions about certain relationships in my life, I pray for happiness through you and a Christ like attitude that I will shine Christ.

your daughter asking for your love and direction

CLC