Sitting, Waiting, Wishing...

No matter what you choose...right or left. Its your decision and you made it for a reason. There is a reason to everything in life and everything happens for a reason. Good things are coming your way and if you didn't get what you've been working for or expecting to receive that means there is bigger and better for you. Just wait!

expecting good things
Casey Lynn

Letters To Me

Dear You

Its time to change a few things in your life. Your outlook, your mindset, your thoughts, and your routine! Its time to start thinking about YOU and what YOU want and need (of course the Lord willing) and make it happen. The past few years a lot has changed. People have come and gone in your life and relationships both for the good and bad have left you empty or confused. Its time to be YOU..quit thinking about the past, quit wishing for things to change that cant, and to start being who you want to become and who you would want apart of your life! What happend in your past is not nearly as important as what is in your future! Like the old saying..Be the change you wish to see in the world. Its not about who has changed the most, who is more ahead in life, or who has set you back in your journey in life. Everyone gets where they are going at a different time and everything happens for a reason. There is detours and dead ends in life for a reason...to make you stronger, change your route, or to make you cherish the good. You might not know the outcome of this year and you might not know what you are suppose to be doing at exactly this moment in life but you do know not to put your life on hold because you don't know what will be. Your going to keep moving, keep hoping, and keep waiting. God loves you and he hasn't forgotten you! He has to have great plans for you to be prepairing you for this long. You are fearfully and wonderful made in the image of God, what could possibily hold you back? Not a bad break up! Not a lost friendship! Not harsh/discouraging words! NOT any situation you can come up with. You are a child of the most high God. He has promised you everything in him and you will get it and at just the right time. Until then stand tall, stand strong, keep trying, and NEVER give up. Good things are coming!!

too changes, my wildest dreams coming true, and being unstoppable and unforgetabble
always yours
CLC

Fix Me Please

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Is the in between pointless?

I hate spending the whole day alone, because Im given hours to think about and evaluate my life too much. The good seems alright, the bad seems worse, and the in between seems pointless. And that leaves me wondering where the heck I am!

I want to know what my future holds. ...I want to know who I'm going to marry and when and how many kids and what job I'll have and where I'll live and the color of the gutters on my house. I want to know all of that so I can stop worrying about where things are going to end up. I want to know that I'll graduate PTA school within a year like I have been aiming for for the past five years and that I will be good at it, and not only good at it but KNOW its where I belong. I want to know that I'll never be divorced and that my husband loves and adores me and admires the woman that I am..and my kids, I just want to know that they wont have any health problems that they will just be normal kids that I love more than anything and have the wonderful opportunity of parenting and teaching them things. I want to say that I will know that my life is going to end with the "happily ever after." But honestly I dont care for the "happily ever after" I just want the chance at making my life all that I dream for it to be! Is our greatest things just our dreams or can it be our reality?

I want and wish so much in my life, I'm setting these unreachable goals and I'm so mad at myself for not being able to reach them. Example: being happy for a week. They say happiness is a state of mind or a choice. Well I say sometimes its hard to do or be what you should.

Sometimes I wish that I could slip into a coma for just a few weeks. Just a week where I don't have to worry about anything....literally, nothing! Almost as though I could switch my brain to "OFF" and all I think about is who I want to be where I want to go in life. Then I can come back to life and just be recharged with this undying thrill for life and my calling. Just pick up where I left off and turn things around for the better...most of you say oh you just need a vacation, or oh thats life...suck it up. But.....

Wouldnt it be nice?


too hopes, dreams, and the fun stuff
Casey Lynn

Thoughts

Its funny the things we humans do...
Like how we hang on to the things we should let go first
How we hang on to the things that are all wrong for us.
Its always the things that hurt us most that we cling to for dear life.
The worst situations that make us feel completely wrong and forget who we are.
The ones that hurt us the most that we give the most to.
The ones that are all wrong for us but we are sure we can make them right.
And the ones that treat us like gold we throw away.
Whats the reasoning to the unexplained?

Seems like the relationships I never put fourth effort in were the ones that loved me the most. But the one I care so much about is the worst one. I started out not caring in the beginning of that one though...at what point did I start caring to the point of no return. Even when he showed his true colors and treated me the way he did I still couldn't walk away. What death trap is that and what finally wakes us up to realize this? Are men just really looking for emotionally detached women so its that much easier when it ends. Seems like they are never the one attached!

pray for me...
CLC

Its Up To You

One of my friends advice on making good choices


This is like life...
If we follow what just sounds good to our desires....I want to scream at that person because they made me mad, my life feels out of control and maybe I'll just eat McDonald's or have another piece of pizza, maybe I'll just sacrifice me my likes, in order to be loved from someone....

EVERYTIME we make a good choice....it may not feel great at the time, or like what we really want to do...but the GREAT CHOICES ALWAYS HAVE GREAT RESULTS....
the poor choices ALWAYS have NEGATIVE RESULTS!

YOUR CHOICE TEST:
What is the result of me doing this? Is it gonna feel good right now, or will it feel better later?
EXAMPLE:
I may want to be loved and I'm lonely, so I start dating someone that fills that void, but they are not the best for us, they may hurt us be mean to us, but we don't want to leave them because we are scared or afraid of feeling sad.

RESULT: you stay in a relationship that is full of hurt, and eventually they will cheat on you or leave you, because they are not true "keepers of your heart", or you will stay in a horrible cycle of hurt or maybe even abuse.


too making good choices and having the courage and strenght to do the right thing
always yours
Casey Lynn

When It Rains It Pours?!?

You ever feel like everything your doing is in vein?
I do, and especially have here lately. Seems like nothing is going right and I feel like the saying "when it rains, it pours" applies to my life right now. I feel like a fish swimming upstream...its just not working, and its not easy. How am I suppose to handle all of this crazy crap that's going on in my life at once? Like today for example. I just bought a new car. I haven't even had it for a month. I go to crank it this morning and the dang thing wont crank. Okay take in mind I live with my parents and all I had to do was go inside and call dad and ask him what to do, or drive his truck BUT what if that WASN'T the case. What if I lived alone. What if I wasn't married or had a boyfriend to call. Who would I call, what would I do. I don't have a second car, I don't have anyone to call, and I cant fix cars. I hate feeling that helpless. I mean I know there are people out there in situations like so but what do they do. I would crumble!!
We have all been in situations like so and I'm telling you today if you feel like me right now and just want to give up. DON'T If I was there these are the words I would say...

be strong in the Lord and,
never give up hope,
you're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
don't live life in fear,
forgive and forget,
but don't forget why you're here,
take your time and pray,
these are the words I would say,

last time we spoke,
you said you were hurting,
and I felt your pain in my heart,
I want to tell you,
that I keep on praying,
love will find you where you are,
I know cause I've already been there,
so please hear these simple truths,

be strong in the Lord and,
never give up hope,
you're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
don't live life in fear,
forgive and forget,
but don't forget why you're here,
take your time and pray,
these are the words I would say,

Just remember...Everything happens for a reason and although we feel defeated by the tragedies presented to us in life, we must always remember that for every action there is a reaction and NOTHING we do is EVER in vein.

to hope, happiness, and carefree days
always yours
Casey Lynn