1/15/2011

Pray for God’s wisdom and healing for your heart. You never know, God may need you out of the way for a short time in order to deal directly with the man. Remember God’s plan for our life isn’t revealed to us all at once, so have hope that His BEST is in the works for you. Close your eyes and trust God. God will never leave you, He is with you now. I love this scripture, Psalm 34:18 The LORD is near to the brokenhearted, And saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Whenever something really big happens in life, I used to want life to stop, cars to stop driving, people stop working, no one shopping at the stores. I wanted to the world to pause for my pain. But life has a cruel and also comforting aspect, it just keeps going on. Even when you want it to stop, it won’t. And at some point in your life, you’ll be comforted that life hasn’t stopped, that the hustle and bustle of life is marching on. Why? Because it encourages us to move again too.

Prayers

Praying For...

My purpose and career field that I am in.

Relationships

My friend Ginger and that I can help her with all she is going through right now

Choices in life and that I make the right decision the Lord would have me to make

To be positive and happy and help others

To do what the Lord has put me on earth for and help others

A better mind set with more FAITH in myself and the Lord

2011

another year has come and gone and so has my birthday. In a day I will turn another year older and feel a little more pressured to figure out my purpose in life and to find "the one". with the start of a new year everyone talks of new year resolutions and things they want to do. id be lying if i said i didn't have a list or know what i wish would happen this year. the only thing that holds me from writing that list is fear of none of it coming true, and the drive of actually wanting to make it all happen. so where does that put me? unmotivated, depressed, unsatisfied, restless, and unhappy with life..?

NO.

even though I have and do feel those a lot of time i have to remind myself EVERYTHING happens for a reason, we ALL have a purpose, and people are placed in our lives for a REASON.

a lot of time we don't understand why things are happening the way they are, whats our purpose or what we are suppose to do in life and why certain people good or bad are in our lives but know its all apart of the big picture. we only see this small tiny part of life in front of us right now but in the long run HE knows how it all works out and answers to the WHYS and I DON'T GET ITS.

to a new year, positive changes, and a happy life

CLC

Wanted Ad for Help or Answers

Praying for a end in sight and a happy conclusion to all of this mess that has been going on for the past year with my boyfriend/ex. I'm so over it. I just pray that the Lord will protect my heart from any other harm and it will be the best option whatever the conclusion is. I am just tired of being unhappy and uncertain and not able to live life. Lord show me your way and may YOUR WILL be done in my life. I don't want it my way when it comes to THIS relationship. Lord have your way, direct my path, and I ask for guidance with this relationship.

Should I stay or should I go...

Should I leave now, or when...

Is there better out there for me or am I being unreasonable..

Lord is this the one? Then if it is why am I so unhappy/disappointed?

Help me Lord I cry out to you and leave it at your feet

Asking and seeking answers

CLC

I AM

I just get frustrated.

I'm waiting on something to happen that's never going to happen.

I'm listening to lies that you always tell me.

I'm believing you care about me and want to change and make us work when all you care about is yourself.

I'm sitting here asking myself how do I love two men that are exactly the same.

How do I attract the most selfish men?

I saw a friend I grew up with at work today and it just made me realize how unhappy I am with my life. She has graduated college, she is engaged, she has a good job making good money and she is currently finishing her masters about to be making even more money and even more successful. I am SO jealous. Not in a envious "I hate her" way...Just a I wish I could have a ounce of her success way. Why cant i be successful? Why cant I graduate college? Why haven't I found a decent guy that will treat me good? Why haven't I done anything that I thought I would have by now? I just feel so inadequate and incompetent and like I am not worth a shit. I haven't done anything with my life and the sad thing is I am busting my ass to try to be someone and it isn't working.

Heart Felt Cries

Let it go

Your not created to be all things to all people or one person, but to be exactly you at exactly this time in history.

If its truly right there is nothing you can do to make it wrong and if its wrong there is nothing you can do to make it right with that person. You might can hold it together temporarily but in the end if its not meant to be its just simply not meant to be.

We may not every understand why we are placed in peoples lives. In a way its exciting and fun...A lot of times its a lot of heartache i believe. Not knowing the outcome or whether or not to invest time and you heart into someone. We will never know. I guess its best to go into every relationship blind whether it be romantically or friendly. Assume the best, plan for the worse, and hope for greatest outcome. Be a gift to others lives. Add to there life instead of take away.

-Lord I come to you tonight lost and confused Father. I just ask for your guidance with relationships. Father guard my heart for it is the wellspring of life. The heart that belongs to you. I seek knowledge to know how to deal with certain relationships in my life right now Father and I ask the courage to carry them out once I know how to handle them. I just ask you guard this heart, heal it Lord make it new and lead me on the path that you have for me. In your most mighty name I pray. Amen

strong hearts, real relationships, and good outcomes

always yours

CLC

Reasonings

Dont let people that dont deserve you in the first place hurt your precious heart.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
— Marilyn Monroe