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Praying for a end in sight and a happy conclusion to all of this mess that has been going on for the past year with my boyfriend/ex. I'm so over it. I just pray that the Lord will protect my heart from any other harm and it will be the best option whatever the conclusion is. I am just tired of being unhappy and uncertain and not able to live life. Lord show me your way and may YOUR WILL be done in my life. I don't want it my way when it comes to THIS relationship. Lord have your way, direct my path, and I ask for guidance with this relationship.

Should I stay or should I go...

Should I leave now, or when...

Is there better out there for me or am I being unreasonable..

Lord is this the one? Then if it is why am I so unhappy/disappointed?

Help me Lord I cry out to you and leave it at your feet

Asking and seeking answers

CLC

I AM

I just get frustrated.

I'm waiting on something to happen that's never going to happen.

I'm listening to lies that you always tell me.

I'm believing you care about me and want to change and make us work when all you care about is yourself.

I'm sitting here asking myself how do I love two men that are exactly the same.

How do I attract the most selfish men?

I saw a friend I grew up with at work today and it just made me realize how unhappy I am with my life. She has graduated college, she is engaged, she has a good job making good money and she is currently finishing her masters about to be making even more money and even more successful. I am SO jealous. Not in a envious "I hate her" way...Just a I wish I could have a ounce of her success way. Why cant i be successful? Why cant I graduate college? Why haven't I found a decent guy that will treat me good? Why haven't I done anything that I thought I would have by now? I just feel so inadequate and incompetent and like I am not worth a shit. I haven't done anything with my life and the sad thing is I am busting my ass to try to be someone and it isn't working.

Heart Felt Cries

Let it go

Your not created to be all things to all people or one person, but to be exactly you at exactly this time in history.

If its truly right there is nothing you can do to make it wrong and if its wrong there is nothing you can do to make it right with that person. You might can hold it together temporarily but in the end if its not meant to be its just simply not meant to be.

We may not every understand why we are placed in peoples lives. In a way its exciting and fun...A lot of times its a lot of heartache i believe. Not knowing the outcome or whether or not to invest time and you heart into someone. We will never know. I guess its best to go into every relationship blind whether it be romantically or friendly. Assume the best, plan for the worse, and hope for greatest outcome. Be a gift to others lives. Add to there life instead of take away.

-Lord I come to you tonight lost and confused Father. I just ask for your guidance with relationships. Father guard my heart for it is the wellspring of life. The heart that belongs to you. I seek knowledge to know how to deal with certain relationships in my life right now Father and I ask the courage to carry them out once I know how to handle them. I just ask you guard this heart, heal it Lord make it new and lead me on the path that you have for me. In your most mighty name I pray. Amen

strong hearts, real relationships, and good outcomes

always yours

CLC

Reasonings

Dont let people that dont deserve you in the first place hurt your precious heart.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
— Marilyn Monroe

Fearfully & Wonderfully Made!

Heard some great encouraging words from a friend! Thought I'd repost for anyone that reads this.

Think about this, you are a specialist. You are not created to be all things to all people, but to be exactly you at exactly this time in history for exactly the special purpose God has for you! Wow?!Knowing this, that you are a specilist for a specific purpose...don't be awestruck by other people and try to copy them...then it ruins your "special-ness" (and yes, I'm pretty sure that is NOT a word) ha ha! But you get my drift...

What to see a miracle? Look at yourself. The Bible says, "you are fearfully and wonderfully made" Psalm 139:14. Why want to change that "wonderful" to a carbon copy of someone else?

God leads everyone in an individual way, that's why it's so interesting to hear someone's testimony...because they are ALL unique! God loves you just they way you are, but He also loves you too much to leave you the way you are...the Holy Spirit who is also called the Comforter is here to help us learn, grow, improve and become all that God wants for us! You don't have to go it alone...at any point! Huge love to all of you specialists!

Be you, your the only one like you out there...besides everyone else is taken =)

heres to you, heres to me,
always yours
Casey Lynn

seize the day

How do you choose between two bad things..

One you don't even know if you still love and the other one that just doesn't quite make you happy?

Do you choose the lesser of the two evils?

Or walk away before too much is invested..what could be worse than uncertainty and unhappiness?

I feel like I am in the dark on both situations!

Letters to the Sky

Show me the love you have for me Lord. I don't understand it at all and it doesn't make sense. How could you love a sinner like me. Father show me, let me experience your love.

Show me the plans you have for me Father. What is my purpose on the world Lord? I feel like I am suppose to be living a life with a purpose and significances. I feel like there is so much more for me to do then where I am now. What job do you have for me Lord.

Change me Father. Be the change in my life. I don't want a temporary fix I choose to do. I want your perfect and everlasting changes on my life.

Lord I ask you just guide me and direct my path. Weed out who I don't need apart of my life. Show me the path you have meant for me. I need your assurance and your hand on my life. I am so lost without you Father. I am tired of trying to figure it out on my own. Wrap your arms around me Lord, I need you!!

Isnt There

Just because you feel it doesn't mean its there!

I am tired of being told by you I am irreplaceable, I am everything you want, the one you want to marry, and the best thing that has ever happened to you. I actually believe it. I sat there and listened to your lies. I believed every word and bought in to every line. It doesn't disappoint me that it ends this way. I honestly don't have any attachment to you this time. It hurts me that I hurt myself again. That I let another person let me down. I use to be so good at protecting myself now the walls just crumble down. I'm done!

Never put faith in man, man will always disappoint you!

Finishing Last!?!

Finishing last in the race of life...?

Yep, how'd you guess? Definitely how I have been feeling lately. I know there is no set time you have to do anything in life but why do I feel so pressured?

The pressure list as follows...

college, marriage, to move out of my parents house, to have kids, to be "successful", to buy a house..the list goes on and on.

So since there is no deadline to meet any of these, why do I feel so pressured and feel last at achieving these. Everyone in my graduating class or my age has finished college, engaged, or married with kids.

What's wrong with me?

I know none of those give you eternal happiness or success but it still doesn't make me feel better about where I am in life. Everyone is engaged and married! I know your saying yeah and probably about half of them wishes they weren't or are unhappily married. Yeah well at least they had the opportunity and tried something! I'm to scared to even do that. I am to worried about is it right and does he really love me.

Marriage and engagement can and mostly does take a back seat to what I really want. Which is a career and to finish college and truly find my purpose in life. If I had just that it'd help things. I don't even know where to start with that one though. Besides praying, seriously I don't know where...

Unengaged, without kids, and still in school,

your Casey Lynn

Letters to the Sky

Dear God,

I come to you tonight asking you for help. I am so confused and so vulnerable right now. I feel like a kid that's played with fire and has been severely burned but cant quit playing with the fire. How can I heal when I keep playing with the fire. I have people in my life that I don't know if I should let go and move on or love and keep trying to make things work and continue to try to hide my hurt and unhappiness. These people aren't all bad and they are good people and i know you have placed them in my life for a reason. I just ask you for direction, I don't know what to do father.

I feel like i have lost my direction in life Father! Am I where you want me to be? Am I doing anything pleasing to you? Am I serving my purpose at all? What do you have for me to do here in this exact place and moment? Whats my purpose? I feel like I have lost all happiness and joy in the process also. Everyday is a struggle to find something to be happy about and stay positive. Who have I turned into? Is this who you want me to be? Change me Father and make me into what would please you. Replace my wants with yours Father, I am tired of doing things my way and I am tried of searching for hope.

I pray and seek true happiness. Lord I search for your answers and your truth. Lord I seek to learn and I want to learn so that I can be a better person. I can not go on another day in this world searching for happiness and hope any longer. I know there is no over the night cure but I ask for YOUR change in me. Lord teach me and show me, change me and make me, mold me into something new. This old me no longer wants to stay the same. I am tired of being complacent and I am tired of not growing. I want to be all that I can be and do all that you intended for me to do. Show me Father, I am asking you to send me. I'll go.

I ask and I am believing in you for healing, I pray for direction in my life for my purpose and your plan for me, I pray for a patient heart and the direction and peace from you to make the right decisions about certain relationships in my life, I pray for happiness through you and a Christ like attitude that I will shine Christ.

your daughter asking for your love and direction

CLC

S'Mores

...RANDOM THOUGHTS IN NO SPECIFIC ORDER...

*I have shitty "friends". So shitty that you cancel on them once and your a "shitty friend" that is never there for them and doesn't care or call.

*All of my "friends" are only "friends" when its convenient for them.

*I went on a date with a guy that is taller than me. Actually he makes me look short. He was 6'5 (I know..wow...right)

*I'm talking to my ex again....I know...not good...right

*Joined my old kick ass gym again, the one that my ex's step mom works at and my ex goes to....refer to sentence above. And before you ask..me joining has nothing to do with him!! so there.

*I still love my ex...yeah...really not good..I know

*I want some super cute brown boots that are exactly what I want, that's hard to find. They are only $199 though...yeah guess I will chance that and see if those go on sale. They are super bad ass though =(

*I am going camping this weekend!

*I just realized about 5 minutes ago that I want have cell phone reception nor will I be able to charge my phone. Awesome, that'll be weird.

*Seriously how do you pack to go camping...I never camped much as a kid. I thought u just pack shorts, t-shirts, panties, and a swim suit. Everything else like showering and brushing your teeth is optional, after all it is camping. If anything I have ALL of those and cant go a day without brushing my teeth so I guess I'm good.

*Bedtime.

camp fires, sleeping bags, and bugs

CLC

Missing

Here today and gone tomorrow....

A guy I went to school withs step mother and his father and 17 year old sister were found dead yesterday in their house. Carbon Monoxide poisoning. Died in their sleep sometime during the night. Life is so unpredictable. Here today gone tomorrow. Its sad. What if we don't get to finish or say what we intended to say or do the next day? My heart breaks for their family and friends. My thoughts and prayers are with them. I pray for comfort and understanding in this tough time.

Change...Please!

Is ready for change...I really need some change in my life Lord

CLC

the last time...

I hate the fact that I have to drive the back roads behind my ex-boyfriends house so that I am not tempted to look and see if he is home on my way home...

I hate the fact that I expect to see him driving around town...

I hate the fact that when I go to grab a t-shirt out of my clean laundry stack I always grab his shirt that he kept at my house...

I hate the fact that MY car reminds me of HIM...

And why in the heck do I wish that he'd be in my bed with me for just one more night?

Just to reassure myself and once again remind myself of the things I passed up I will compile a list..maybe for future reference. But I'm claiming this the last post "deep thoughts" on him.

-Do you want to date someone that is all about them self?

-Do you want to date a guy that believes you watching him play 5 hours of Xbox is a fun Friday night?

-Do you want to get involved with a guy that's parents have no interest in getting to know you better or even talking to you after you've dated 7 months?

-Do you want to date or get involved with a guy that doesn't have the same religious beliefs as you or even make a point to go to church with you?

-Do you want to date a guy that is a MAN but still has no responsibility because his parents do everything for him and enable him?

-Do you want to date a guy with no vision in life or goals?

-Do you want to date a guy you cant talk to about everything?

-Do you want to date a guy that doesn't make you feel appreciated at all?

There is better and the Lord and has promised you better!

He hasn't forgotten you or forsaken you. Maybe this relationship was a test and a lesson. Don't be bitter and don't hate that person that hurt you forever. He was sent in your life for a reason and you were in his for a reason as well. We might never know why and I am not asking for answers anymore as to why the Lord sen HIM and how he could allow him to hurt me so bad. I am past that, I am not looking for answers I am looking for healing in the Lord and at the future. The Lord binds the broken hearted.

to healing hearts,

CLC

BAD DAY???

I Dont See Myself When I Look In Your Eyes...Thank God For That

What do you do when you get rid of the thing that was making you unhappy and your still unhappy? How long do you give yourself to get over the losing someone to unhappiness before you evaluate your life to see if your happy without them like you thought you'd be? Could it have just been that person alone making us unhappy or were we unhappy before them and did we throw out a good chance at something.

The only thing more unthinkable than leaving was staying; the only thing more impossible than staying was leaving...

Why do hang on to things we know want work? And what about the crappy situations we put ourself in! Seems like the guys that lie,cheat, and hurt us are the relationships we want to work the most. Whats the reasoning in that!?

If I know he made me unhappy and I know that we weren't compatible then why was I so determined to work at it and what made me want and love him even more? Where does all that love come from for one person that just isn't right for you? After its all said and done I'm not bitter, I don't regret dating him and wouldn't change things. I just don't know what to do with the hurt and emptiness inside I feel for that person. I have never felt more wounded by someone or something. It seems the older we get the more we hurt after failed relationships. Pray for me and my shattered heart!!

Situations

~Some of the most beautiful flowers grow alone and out poop.
If your alone and in a shitty situation take heart that out of some of the most alone and literally crappy situations comes the most beautiful things. Look at some of the most beautiful flowers and plants that grow out of poo! If a flower can do it you and I can to!!

FATE.....Is That You?

Today was another average day for the most part. I woke up uncertain what time I was suppose to be at work..of course after much scorning from myself for forgetting to bring home my work schedule I immediately text my co-worker to ask him what time I was suppose to come in. I wait and wait and wait. Was it 10:30 or 11:30 or was it 1:00? So I start getting ready. I was ready and left the house to be at work at 10:30when I get the text 11:30! Well great, now what!?! So I decided to go by the Starbucks near work and grab a cup of coffee until time to go in. I go and like most visit at Starbucks there are always a mixed crowd of people in there. Business people, college students studying, etc. I grab my coffee and sit down ready to enjoy the silence and peace of being alone and left with my thoughts until work until the man beside me strikes up conversation. Turns out he works at the hospital I work at and in the same building I do, as a matter of fact...right behind my office. WEIRD..I know! We make small talk and chat about sports and he mentions he's from out of town and just moved here...like as in a week ago. Really new to the area I'd say. Long story short we talk get to know each other and swap numbers before we depart in the promise of hanging out soon and showing him around. Times like these I don't think of it as a possible new boyfriend or even friend really. Lets face it I may never talk to the guy again. But it makes me wonder about FATE and how God places people in your life for a reason. Whether it be years or just a season, there is always a reason! And that's what keeps me excited in life...the unexpected wonderful things the Lord does day to day in our lives. Whether it be taking away or adding someone or something in our life, its all apart of his will and at just the right time sometimes you can see into what he's doing.

to fate, happiness, and hope for a bright future
Casey Lynn

Writing what I live...Living what I write

Feels like I am at a turning point in life. Things have got to change and get better. Nothing stays unsolved forever and people never stay miserable the rest of their life unless they choose so. These hards times are for a reason and it will all make sense one day. I am on the right path..Im trying, Im doing my best, Im trying to better myself, and most importantly I am seeking God in all of these hard and confusing times. He knows the answers and know knows my path. All I can ask for is strenght through it all.

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing...

No matter what you choose...right or left. Its your decision and you made it for a reason. There is a reason to everything in life and everything happens for a reason. Good things are coming your way and if you didn't get what you've been working for or expecting to receive that means there is bigger and better for you. Just wait!

expecting good things
Casey Lynn

Letters To Me

Dear You

Its time to change a few things in your life. Your outlook, your mindset, your thoughts, and your routine! Its time to start thinking about YOU and what YOU want and need (of course the Lord willing) and make it happen. The past few years a lot has changed. People have come and gone in your life and relationships both for the good and bad have left you empty or confused. Its time to be YOU..quit thinking about the past, quit wishing for things to change that cant, and to start being who you want to become and who you would want apart of your life! What happend in your past is not nearly as important as what is in your future! Like the old saying..Be the change you wish to see in the world. Its not about who has changed the most, who is more ahead in life, or who has set you back in your journey in life. Everyone gets where they are going at a different time and everything happens for a reason. There is detours and dead ends in life for a reason...to make you stronger, change your route, or to make you cherish the good. You might not know the outcome of this year and you might not know what you are suppose to be doing at exactly this moment in life but you do know not to put your life on hold because you don't know what will be. Your going to keep moving, keep hoping, and keep waiting. God loves you and he hasn't forgotten you! He has to have great plans for you to be prepairing you for this long. You are fearfully and wonderful made in the image of God, what could possibily hold you back? Not a bad break up! Not a lost friendship! Not harsh/discouraging words! NOT any situation you can come up with. You are a child of the most high God. He has promised you everything in him and you will get it and at just the right time. Until then stand tall, stand strong, keep trying, and NEVER give up. Good things are coming!!

too changes, my wildest dreams coming true, and being unstoppable and unforgetabble
always yours
CLC

Fix Me Please

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Is the in between pointless?

I hate spending the whole day alone, because Im given hours to think about and evaluate my life too much. The good seems alright, the bad seems worse, and the in between seems pointless. And that leaves me wondering where the heck I am!

I want to know what my future holds. ...I want to know who I'm going to marry and when and how many kids and what job I'll have and where I'll live and the color of the gutters on my house. I want to know all of that so I can stop worrying about where things are going to end up. I want to know that I'll graduate PTA school within a year like I have been aiming for for the past five years and that I will be good at it, and not only good at it but KNOW its where I belong. I want to know that I'll never be divorced and that my husband loves and adores me and admires the woman that I am..and my kids, I just want to know that they wont have any health problems that they will just be normal kids that I love more than anything and have the wonderful opportunity of parenting and teaching them things. I want to say that I will know that my life is going to end with the "happily ever after." But honestly I dont care for the "happily ever after" I just want the chance at making my life all that I dream for it to be! Is our greatest things just our dreams or can it be our reality?

I want and wish so much in my life, I'm setting these unreachable goals and I'm so mad at myself for not being able to reach them. Example: being happy for a week. They say happiness is a state of mind or a choice. Well I say sometimes its hard to do or be what you should.

Sometimes I wish that I could slip into a coma for just a few weeks. Just a week where I don't have to worry about anything....literally, nothing! Almost as though I could switch my brain to "OFF" and all I think about is who I want to be where I want to go in life. Then I can come back to life and just be recharged with this undying thrill for life and my calling. Just pick up where I left off and turn things around for the better...most of you say oh you just need a vacation, or oh thats life...suck it up. But.....

Wouldnt it be nice?


too hopes, dreams, and the fun stuff
Casey Lynn

Thoughts

Its funny the things we humans do...
Like how we hang on to the things we should let go first
How we hang on to the things that are all wrong for us.
Its always the things that hurt us most that we cling to for dear life.
The worst situations that make us feel completely wrong and forget who we are.
The ones that hurt us the most that we give the most to.
The ones that are all wrong for us but we are sure we can make them right.
And the ones that treat us like gold we throw away.
Whats the reasoning to the unexplained?

Seems like the relationships I never put fourth effort in were the ones that loved me the most. But the one I care so much about is the worst one. I started out not caring in the beginning of that one though...at what point did I start caring to the point of no return. Even when he showed his true colors and treated me the way he did I still couldn't walk away. What death trap is that and what finally wakes us up to realize this? Are men just really looking for emotionally detached women so its that much easier when it ends. Seems like they are never the one attached!

pray for me...
CLC

Its Up To You

One of my friends advice on making good choices


This is like life...
If we follow what just sounds good to our desires....I want to scream at that person because they made me mad, my life feels out of control and maybe I'll just eat McDonald's or have another piece of pizza, maybe I'll just sacrifice me my likes, in order to be loved from someone....

EVERYTIME we make a good choice....it may not feel great at the time, or like what we really want to do...but the GREAT CHOICES ALWAYS HAVE GREAT RESULTS....
the poor choices ALWAYS have NEGATIVE RESULTS!

YOUR CHOICE TEST:
What is the result of me doing this? Is it gonna feel good right now, or will it feel better later?
EXAMPLE:
I may want to be loved and I'm lonely, so I start dating someone that fills that void, but they are not the best for us, they may hurt us be mean to us, but we don't want to leave them because we are scared or afraid of feeling sad.

RESULT: you stay in a relationship that is full of hurt, and eventually they will cheat on you or leave you, because they are not true "keepers of your heart", or you will stay in a horrible cycle of hurt or maybe even abuse.


too making good choices and having the courage and strenght to do the right thing
always yours
Casey Lynn

When It Rains It Pours?!?

You ever feel like everything your doing is in vein?
I do, and especially have here lately. Seems like nothing is going right and I feel like the saying "when it rains, it pours" applies to my life right now. I feel like a fish swimming upstream...its just not working, and its not easy. How am I suppose to handle all of this crazy crap that's going on in my life at once? Like today for example. I just bought a new car. I haven't even had it for a month. I go to crank it this morning and the dang thing wont crank. Okay take in mind I live with my parents and all I had to do was go inside and call dad and ask him what to do, or drive his truck BUT what if that WASN'T the case. What if I lived alone. What if I wasn't married or had a boyfriend to call. Who would I call, what would I do. I don't have a second car, I don't have anyone to call, and I cant fix cars. I hate feeling that helpless. I mean I know there are people out there in situations like so but what do they do. I would crumble!!
We have all been in situations like so and I'm telling you today if you feel like me right now and just want to give up. DON'T If I was there these are the words I would say...

be strong in the Lord and,
never give up hope,
you're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
don't live life in fear,
forgive and forget,
but don't forget why you're here,
take your time and pray,
these are the words I would say,

last time we spoke,
you said you were hurting,
and I felt your pain in my heart,
I want to tell you,
that I keep on praying,
love will find you where you are,
I know cause I've already been there,
so please hear these simple truths,

be strong in the Lord and,
never give up hope,
you're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
don't live life in fear,
forgive and forget,
but don't forget why you're here,
take your time and pray,
these are the words I would say,

Just remember...Everything happens for a reason and although we feel defeated by the tragedies presented to us in life, we must always remember that for every action there is a reaction and NOTHING we do is EVER in vein.

to hope, happiness, and carefree days
always yours
Casey Lynn

stuck somewhere between dreams and reality..

Psalm 34:18 The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit!

I'm a little broken down right now. Its a vicious cycle and I feel like I am getting now where. I don't have a friend in the world to depend on right now and things just aren't what I thought they should be. But I guess life usually isn't. Some say happiness is a action and a state of mind, something you choose. But its not always easy to make yourself feel the way you ought to or the way you want to feel. I freak out about things, cry, pray, cry, then read a book. Last week this helped, I don't know if its because its me escaping reality or its relief. Guess I will just keep praying like crazy. This too shall soon pass!

praying for me, praying for you...
always yours
Casey Lynn

When You Cant Go On...

Sometimes words escape me and I don't even have encouraging words to tell myself. On those days you have to look back in the memory archives and pull out words that keep you going. I look all around me right now at people. Some look happy and some look just as sad as I have felt the past few days. I client of mine told me this today and it broke my heart..she said " its everywhere, everyone feels like that Casey", no one is happy"! Well I'm here saying a little prayer for you and my sweet little friend that told me that today. I pray that anyone that reads this is happy and finds true everlasting happiness. Don't give up. Good things are coming and life's rainbows always come out after the big storms.


I want you to know, if you feel like giving up...DON'T - that sad time will pass. You WILL feel happy again. Everyone I know has gone through a sad time, that they felt that the pain was too much, and they didn't want to go on.

Be reminded that nothing you've done is too awful, God gives you a fresh day with no guilt, no shame, he just wants to love you and for you to love him in return. He takes you as your are and meets you in the middle. He's the master of "Mr. Fix It"

If no one else it telling you it's okay...I AM
It's okay, whatever your heart hurts about...it's okay. Nothing is TOO big for God to handle. If you feel like it's too much, like you can't go on...don't go on it alone. If no one is there, sometimes God removes everyone there could be to talk to, so the only one left (the most important one) is HIM.
You will be happy again. You will feel like going on, I promise!
I love you!! You're precious!! And if no one else has told you how amazing you are...I did! You're amazing, loved, and have amazing things to do in this world!

the great thing about today is it ends tonight and tomorrow is a new day...

too many happy days, a life of purpose, and all your amazing dreams coming true
always yours
Casey Lynn

Take A Hint?

I got really discourage today! Yesterday was a nightmare. It was the start of the summer semester, well kind of. Thursday was actually the "start" but I slept through both of my classes on accident...yeah great, I know! Well anyway I was at work today telling a guy friend of mine that had read a post I had posted on facebook about how horrible yesterday was and he simply told me it might be a hint..? For some reason I took it as take a hint and give up, quit school, its for your best interest! Now I know it wasnt probably meant in that way but WOW did it hurt. Of course I automatically start thinking, maybe he's right. Maybe I dont have what it takes. Who am I joking. I cant this, I cant that, Im not good enough etc. But then I thought to myself if everything was given to us in life and easy or we didnt have to work for anything then what would be the point in life? I believe nothing we do is ever in vein. For every action there is a reaction. So if your on the verge of giving up, or your thinking that these dreams you have just cant come true I say different!
There is a reason YOU have those specific dreams, goals, and doing what your doing now! Keep your hopes alive and your heart and chin even higher...No matter what is going on. Think of it as getting you stronger and more prepared for GREATNESS!!! I believe in you and love you, even if no one else told you that today..I did! Go take on the world! Your meant for greatness.

too high hopes, big dreams, and it all coming true
always yours
Casey Lynn

Dont Give Up...

Keep your hopes alive and your heart and chin even higher...No matter what is going on. Think of it as getting you stronger and more prepared for greatness!! I believe in you and love you...if no one else told you that today, I did! And I mean it, you can do anything. Your options are endless. Don't give up you got a reason to live! On cold, boring, restless days think of something great that has happended in your life whether it was a amazing trip you took or a huge accomplishment and remember its only the beginning. God has plenty more he wants to bless you with! Just believe in him and be grateful. Good Things Are Coming Friend!

Say Hello To My Lil Friend....

That's Arlee Mae AKA The Mae-i-nator and I =) haha...that little dog makes me so happy and is such a blessing in my life words cant describe. No real update today, just dropping in to say happy Friday! Ohh wait...UPDATE on the prayer for others thing...I went to Starbucks today before work to waste time and I was sitting there just people watching by the window and a man walked by and stopped by the trash can and picked through it and pulled out a drink with what was left of some sort of a tea and drank it. It hit me hard and immediately I started praying for that man. I couldn't imagine being homeless or hungry and not knowing where my next meal came from. Right as I was about to eat a rice crispy treat I had bought from Starbucks I decided I didn't want it and thought about how I could give it to that man without coming off pushy. He walked away and disappeared for a little while and I am not going to lie I got side tracked and immediately started thinking of all the stressful crap on my little brain. But as I was walking out he just so happened to be right on my path and way to my car. He asked me for money and I told him I didn't have any but had a rice crispy treat that he was more than welcome to have. He took it and didn't say anything. I just wonder if he ate it....


too helping others more, being the light for others, and to a good weekend... (Im off memorial day..yay)
Casey Lynn

Eyes Of The Lord

Ive been inspired and wanted to share it with you. Id love to say its original and that I thought of this but I didnt. It came from a lovely Christian friend of mines blog name Tiffany. The work that this woman is doing for the Father is amazing! She has inspired me to do it also. I have thought this too when I have seen people before. Its a beautiful and selfless things and a wonderful way to give! Im excited to start.

Here’s how it works, wherever I am, not matter what I am doing…if I see a child or a person who just hits my heart like a bug on a windshield…I pray for them. I look right at them and pray over their life. I pray that they choose God, that He protects them, that they grow and serve Him in a mighty way. Perhaps this is the reason that God put that person in your line of sight, that they need prayer at that very instant. You are responsible for the people who cross your path each day!

1 Thessalonians 5:17 “Pray without ceasing”

Hebrews 4:16 “Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.”

-When you LOOK for opportunities to pray for others, it gives you an exciting expectancy in your heart. You are now on the lookout for next soul you will notify God about…and He will work in their life! Trust Him. You have a PURPOSE now, every single day you are alive. This is our mission! Pray!!!

I got a G

Say Hello To My G......
I got a new car today! Im excited and scared at the same time...haha. The only reason I was scared is for the fact that I cant say with signing a 5 year contract where I will be in life. And that SCARED me big time. You know I could get this car and in a few months lose my job or something go wrong. Who can predict 5 years or much less next week. But as I laid in bed last night I sat there and thought that NO ONE in life would EVER do anything if we never stepped out there and took a leap of faith. No one would ever buy a car, ever buy a house, or we'd ever have children if we always thought...well what if. So that is simply what I did. I took a leap of faith and I stepped out there and said God will provided! I am trusting him. I give God the Glory for this nice blessing!
He will provided.

to a new car, faith in the Lord, and leaps of Faith
Casey Lynn

Sun

The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy!!!

Random Notes

People with unkind hurting hearts, hurt people. People with happy hearts, make others happy.

A lot of times we are being blessed more than we know and we might not see the process taking place but it is taking place. God loves us, he knows what we need but he wants us to learn along the way and be happy in the process. Things are taken for granted if just given to someone. Some things in life were said to be impossible, until they were done. I'm learning to be happy in the process and help others around me. I use to close up and not talk to anyone when I had things going on in my life or something was bothering me, so I changed. I started opening up and talking about issues and problems I was facing and still nothing changed. Ive learned its not about entrusting people or friends with your problems its about being there for them. People don't solve your problem and truly that cant solve yours but sometimes its just having someone that genuinely cares and listens that helps.

to a happy heart, helping others, and success
always yours
Casey Lynn

Nothing We Do Is Ever In Vein

Everything happends for a reason and although we feel defeated by the tragedies presented to us in life, we must always remember that for every action there is a reaction, and nothing we do is ever in vein!

Ive been down lately. My car is messed up and I have no stinking clue whats wrong with it....just great...perfect timing! I dont have the money for a new car and I dont honestly want to put money in the one I have. Id be putting more money into it than its worth. So what do I do? Life sure has a way of getting you down at times. Its seems at the roughest times when you need good people around you to hold you up they are few and far between. I have a few to lean on and I am thankful for the ones I have. I have a friend that continues to always be there for me no matter the situation. It seems he has a sense on things and when they will go bad and he's always the first to arise. He has no clue what it means to me. My dad continues to provided for me in times of need also and I am continuley thankful for him as well even though I wish he would just tell me how and where to fix all of my problems..lol. What can you do, its in his plans to make me a functional independent woman by letting me figure it out on my own. He's probably right anyway..I guess if he knew I couldnt handle it then he wouldnt not try to help. I am also stuggling with my schedule right now and having so much free time on my hands. I am praying that the choices I have made for school and qutting one of my jobs was the best decision. Right now I will wait the wonder, trust in him and see where the Lord takes me. I love the quote above. Its beyond comforting to know in times of need.

to happy days, dependable cars, and easier times
always yours
Casey Lynn

The Skinny On The Skinny

Its everywhere you turn! People talking about losing weight, who's skinny, who's lost a lot of weight lately, or how much they have lost. Seems like I hear even more about it now that I work in a gym/rehab fitness center. From tabloid magazines to websites keeping up with the celebrity's weights its easy...and I mean really easy to get discourage or down and out about your body. I personally think there is too much pressure put upon people these days with body image and how much one weighs but you also have to look at statistics and the US and the obesity rate. So what is the healthy in between? I myself have been on both ends of the weight spectrum and struggled with both and fluctuacted trying to find a in between. From modeling and being super skinny to now a healthier weight but feeling huge compaired to then sooo whats ideal?

I cant tell you how hard it is for me to talk on this. Weight, its a hard topic no matter the size of the person. And I think women struggle more than men with this issue. Women tend to be a little more vain and superficial then men so we take to heart a few extra pounds we gain. The past few months I have really been struggling with body issues. Well forget the whole past few months...I have struggled my whole life with being comfortable with my body. Even when I was super skinny I felt and thought I was 300 pounds. Even though I am considered normal or I look fine, starting tomorrow I am going back to my healthier days. College has taken a stress toll on me and even though I havent really gained weight Ive lost my motivation and will power. Im hoping to get it back and maybe lose 15 pounds while Im at it. Just some changed I feel like I need to make. So Im praying for the willpower and motivation I use to have. Its nothing but a mindset. So here is to new changes!


to healthier days, motivated workouts, and a happy mindset
always yours
Casey Lynn

Broken Heart

TODAYS BLOG THAT MY FRIEND KANDEE JOHNSON WROTE:


Number of emails from people with broken heart: 874,498,387

And millions of heart are hurting and broken, in the world right now.

I hope this little post will help some hearts...somewhere.

SCENE 1: you have just been left with a heart that feels so broken, you just want to sleep, you don't want to be awake and feel anything! You can't imagine how your life will go on with any kind of happiness without this person in your life. You are already imagining, that no one will ever be as great as them.

SCENE 2: you have been or are in an abusive relationship, someone that verbally abuses you (saying horrible hurtful things that will forever scar your heart), physically abuses you (hurting you in any way), mentally abuses you (controls you, manipulates situations, scares you, threatens you), or even sexually abuses you (any form of touching that you don't want).
now enters the voice of help!

For #1 with a
broken heart: No one that is willing to let you go or hurt your heart, or leave you...is good enough to EVER be the one to hold your precious heart in their hands. Someone that has no idea how amazing you are, how irreplaceable you are, how unique how adorable, how beautiful, how someone will come into your life and say, "I don't ever want to live without you in my life, and I'll never, ever think of leaving you!". Someone is going to adore how you laugh, love the sound of your voice, think that you make everything more fun, how you are the most amazing thing they've ever seen, that nothing could take them away from you. That they'd walk through fire, drive for hours, just to see your face.
If you ARE or WERE with someone that didn't realize you were the best thing on Earth....GOOD RIDDANCE!!! Because they don't deserve one more second of your time or tears!
You are one of a kind amazing! They way you say things, the way you laugh, the way you dance or sing, the funny things you so, the quirky things you do...these are all what someone is going to FALL HEAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE WITH!!! And if someone doesn't...DON'T waste your time with them...because the person that's going to LOVE all those things and you, is rejoicing that, that other person is out of the way, so they can come and find you!
Even though I don't normally listen to country music, I love the song, "God Bless the Broken Road" by Rascal Flatts
in the song it says,
"Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

This is beautiful....that each person that broke your heart, needed to get out of your life, so the right one, one that will never hurt you, can come into your life. They will adore you, cherish you, and gently hold your heart, and will go out of their way to make sure your heart is never hurt!
I've been hurt many times, I've been cheated on, dumped, I've been in abusive relationships, and I'm so glad I'm not in any of those anymore! I even dated a guy that told me how beautiful he thought other girls were and how he had "crushes" on them, in front of me! (oh brother!) Thank goodness I said "enough!", they dumped me, or I got the courage to leave them, and end that horrible time in my life!


Now for #2
an abusive relationship
If you are with someone that constantly hurts your feelings, makes you feel miserable, unhappy, stupid, ugly, sad, depressed, worthless...ANY one of those! That is not a soul mate....that is a mean mate!
And if you are with someone that hurts you, hits you, threatens you (with anything) scares you for any reason, (especially if they drink or do drugs...they will think even worse!).
I was in an abusive relationship, where I was afraid of everything, I was afraid to leave my house, I was told horrible things, I was threatened, and he had a huge anger problem, the police had to be called, I didn't have any money or any food to eat. And the horrible part was, I was so afraid to leave him, that he would be even more mad and find me. Or he would promise me he wouldn't do any of that again and he was sooooo sorry! WELL THAT'S THE ABUSIVE CYCLE!!! (THEY'RE MEAN, THEN THEY FEEL BAD, APOLOGIZE, SAY THEY WON'T DO IT AGAIN.....AND JUST WAIT...IT'S A GUARANTEE THEY'LL DO IT AGAIN! It just comes down to how long you're going to stay and keep going through that emotional cycle.


I prayed and asked God to get me out of there! And sure enough, it was by a miracle, we were getting kicked out of the apartment we lived in, I called my mom, she bought me a plane ticket, he even drove me to the airport, and once I was safely at my mom and dad's, I said, I can't come back. I's had enough! I knew, this wasn't how it was supposed to be. Your heart heart shouldn't hurt when you're in love!


So, to each of you precious souls...you were made so fantastically! You are funny, witty, brilliant, cute, adorable, you have your own style, your own way of making people's lives fun. People should want to be wherever you are....because wherever you are....life is more fun, because you are in it!


Don't settle...you deserve the best! And the best is waiting for this "broken heart" to be pointed in their direction, that whoever hurt you, is the Northern Star, that is pointing you right to the one that will NEVER, EVER hurt you.


And remember, your girlfriend, boyfriend, husband or wife....is not your whole world! They are there to support and be a companion, but remember, as soon as they get placed on a pedestal....that's a promise that you are putting them too high on your life list...and you're giving them control to definitely hurt you! Every human being at some point will disappoint you, hurt you, make you sad...they aren't perfect. The only person who's never stop loving me is God. Boyfriends, girlfriends, even husbands and wives (ha ha ha), may come and go...but God and your family will always be there love you!


I love you...and don't let another tear fall from your eyes. I wish I could be there to hug you and tell you, "No, rejoice that now, you're true soul mate, is free to find you! Be patient, they are on their way!"



huge love, chocolate and lots of love, typed with love, kandee

Laugh It Up!

My Week At A Glance....since I have been missing in action.
Lately I have been running over a scripture everywhere I turn. I read a book last night and its in it. I read a friends blog, she's talks on it and has the same scripture at the bottom. Okay Lord, I'm listening....Ive learned that if its said more than once than its important and to pay attention. Sooooo John 10:10 says, "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly." Last night when I was reading this the author was talking about her life and career and the wonderful husband the Lord has brought her. I read my friends blog this morning and she talks about in this world you will have trouble. But take heart! The Lord has overcome the world. It is up to us to realize what plan the Lord has for us and run to it full force. He knows what we need and he knows how to get it to us. You may not see how it can all happen, but God can. He can make a way out of no way. Remember, He has you in the palm of His hand. He knows every need. He knows every struggle. He knows every dream and every desire in your heart, and He has a plan to bring it to pass. He's a supernatural God. Choose to put your faith and trust in Him today because He is working behind the scenes to lead you into victory in every area of your life. My God will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus Philippians 4:19

This week has been busy in a "I don't have things going on but I am busy kind of way". Yeah that probably makes no sense. Maybe Ive just been mentally busy...haha. In that mental chaos or busy weeks we have we sometimes don't have time or slip in our daily devotions or prayers. The scripture above gave me comfort in knowing that HE knows even when we don't say it, ask for it, or pray about it. He knows whats best for us. Sometimes its the unspoken things on our heart that he answers. That makes me rest a little in knowing. Not saying slack in prayer though =)

Well I'm officially broke....my summer classes are paid for this summer and I can say I am now a proud owner of my first Macbook laptop....Impressive I know ;)


In the file of things I need to remember...A man at work just came up to me and said he is very impressed with the way I handle people and the different types and varieties of people/patients I work with. He said that combined with a good goals and morals I will go far in life and am sure to succeed. (He has no clue but that means the world to me, I never/hardly ever here that)

You truly never know who is watching you and how you inspire them or the light and hope you give. I encourage you to be the light of the world. Shine Baby Shine =)

So to YOU reading this! You are more beautiful than you know, more talented than you think, and more loved than you can imagine.

to sunny days, a bright future, and your successful life...
always yours
Casey Lynn

Live What U Love

LIVE WHAT YOU LOVE....A friend of mine just said this to me in conversation a few minutes ago and I thought how true of a statement! We live what we love. If you look at our bank statements and follow our actions long enough you will see what that person lives for. I'm torn at the thought just like I am with a certain situation I am dealing with in my life at the moment. I cant stress enough how actions speak louder than words but today was the first time I actually applied it to my life. What actions are speaking for the loves in my life...? Now that's food for thought..right :)

Lets see...whats new...? Times are fair I guess. I'm just praying for the courage and strength to deal with certain situations in my life right now. For a heart of strength that's covered by the Lord. Times get tough but its all for a reason and sometimes I can see that reason so it makes it not so bad.

Ive been doing a lot of dreaming lately. I forgot how fun it is. Dreaming of the future, dreaming of how I hope life turns out, dreaming of my future life, where I live, what I will do etc. Dreams fuel the fire of inspiration and motivate you to do the desires of your heart. Mine have painted some beautiful pictures lately on cloudy days when I thought all was lost and I was going or getting no where. I encourage you to dream. Dream, even if it is little things, they are what help make the big things amazing.

I'm getting writers block....or A.D.D. haha

Yeah....


Remember the tragedy in life is not death but its a life without purpose!
Go make a difference and be proud of the life your living and the actions to show for it!

always yours
leaving you with dreams, love, and hopes for a happy life
Casey Lynn

Changes...

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together...."
— Marilyn Monroe

I fall in love with this quote the more time passes and the more people change for unexpected reason. Am I the only one that feels that I havent changed and everything and everyone around me is chaning without me...? I pray that its just me that doesnt realize how much I truly have changed. I have so many things that I want to change. So many dreams and hopes for the future...I just hope I am apart of those wonderful dream filling changes I have in my head. Everything happens for a reason Casey Lynn!
Everything happens for a reason Friend!


to many new good changes, dreams, and a hopeful heart for a bright happy future!
Casey

ME

I don't type must about me, for the most part my blogs consist of daily encouraging messages or biblical stuff from my daily devotions. Soooo I am not gonna lie and say I just wanna type about me today...truth is I have a new schedule and I haven't done my daily devotions in the past few days. Therefore nothing inspiring on the brain today. Gosh that sounds so disappointing typing that out! Ha

Anyway on to ME....who are we and what makes us up or who we are for what reason? Have you ever thought that? I have and explaining myself or telling someone or even describing myself is harder to me than writing a 100 page paper for school. Sad I know. You say well maybe you really don't fully know yourself. And Id say your probably right. Do we ever really know our self? I feel like with every season we all change a little. And boy have these past few months been a doozy for me.
In some many ways I feel stronger, not physically but mentally... I feel at ease with certain decisions I have made and certain things that I have come to a close with. One pertaining to a job. A job I have worked at for 5 years. A place I despised for so long that I now no longer have to call work. But also a feeling of emptiness and fear of failure it leaves me if what I am pursuing doesn't work out. I dont have it as a back up plan or a crutch but I gained the leap of faith trying.
Relationship have taught me to love to your fullest....Give EVERYone your all even if you know that person will hurt you. There is a reason your in that persons life and where they might have hurt me I bet I helped them somehow and THAT to me means more. I rather have heartache than to be just another person.

That's two of the many recent things I have endured and learned from and I know it says nothing for who I really am sooooo here is better...
i am me and I'm still changing...a piece of work through God


Okay so I bought these fan-freaking-tastic cookies sandwiches with icing holding them together for someones birthday tomorrow and they are in my car and can i just say all I can think about it going out there and devouring one right now. HAHA
(random I know)


cookies with icing, a cup of coffee, lots of love, and a hug
Case

Dear Mr. Clean

-To many people function in their dysfunction-

I saw this quote somewhere and it didn't strike me until the other day when I was looking through my on going list of quotes and thought about how true this quote has been for me for too long it seems. You know we don't have to function in our problems, worries, stress, or messed up life style. There is someone bigger that wants to, so to say "clean house" on us. I imagine those houses you see on TV, the horders. Man those people have stuff on stuff. It's usually wall to wall in those houses. They have soooo much stuff that it usually is damaging to their health. They have bags and bags of garbage, but still function in it. But you can only do that for so long. Eventually it becomes to much, you know you need help but you feel like even starting or atttempting something will not make progress. But that's the beautiful part of it. God is the master of clean! He puts Mr. Clean to shame...haha. All we have to do is ask and truly want to give over our baggage or garbage that we are carrying around and trying to live with. Each day is a NEW day and we are given an opportunity to try to do what the lord has planned for us and we don't need old baggage or garbage in our lives weighing us down. He is like the clean team that comes in and helps u clean up you body. He wants to comes in daily and wash away our past oopes or failures. He gives us a new sheet or slate to start over, try again, do over, a mulligan...haha whatever you want to consider it. All we have to do is allow him to come in and clean us up. Half the time what we are carrying around is not helping us. It's past failures, past relationships, past hurts, past attempts that didn't work out or ended badly. And that is when we learn to function in our dysfunction. I don't know about you but I'm tired of functioning in my past and dysfunctions. I shouldn't allow that to control my future. It only holds me back, I can't possibily reach what God intended for me if I have all of these other things dragging and weighing me down. So that's what I'm and focusing on! The lord changing me and me letting go of the past. So I pray for you and myself to let those past problems, baggage, and garbage be thrown out. I am here to let the Lord work in me and change me but I know first I have things to be cleansed of.

To many weight free days and wonderful new changes in the Lord
Casey

Good Things Are Coming!

Today I just feel like complaining! I didnt have anything positive to say and couldnt think of anything uplifting to encourage myself with. I just got back from a wonderful mind/stress erasing weekend with my family at the beach and the last thing I wanted to do was get up early this morning and drive home to be a work at 3. It seems like the things you run away from to take a break from or escape are always there waiting for you when you return from vacation. I dont know why I thought it would be better or that they had simply vanished. It seems right after Im defeated I read something that helps me or makes me think about things for truly what they are. It was simply put that we will all have "bad days" or "bad things" will happen. Its not our job to question and figure out WHY things are happening the way they are or why this bad thing happend. We are to simply make the best of it and the better we will be! But sometimes that is SOOOO hard to do...right?!?! I will be the first to say I rather pout and cry and wonder why then move on and make the best of it and have a better attitude and say good things will come my way. Instead of wasting time on the now and asking myself why this, why that, why do I feel this way, why has so and so hurt me. I am going to put my thoughts towards positive things that are happening or be grateful for what I DO have. The bad things that happen and the things we question why a lot of times are the things that make us stronger. Its hard going through it and its a painful process but we learn from it and HE would never give us more than we can take! Thats one of my favorite things to remind myself when I want to quit or just run when the going gets tough.
He never gives us more than we can take!
Im so thankful for a positive friend I have in my life to encourage and lift me up. She truly is an example and someone I hope to be like more and more everyday. I wish I was more positive and I wish I had her attitude about life and hard times soooo I am praying for a more positive outlook and the faith in knowing it will all work out for the good. So if your going through hard times, a bad relationship, rough time with friends, or loss of a loved one, I pray for the all the strenght in the world for you and happiness in knowing the Lord will see you through it.

Daily Quote/Love Mission:
I dont know why I have this quote on my mind but I do. So I thought I would share. So here is the story behind it now. Okay so about a year ago I was getting a tattoo on my leg,(a cross on the back of my ankle if you really want to know) and as I was laying there I was looking around the room at all of the tattoo artists stickers and posters and such he had all over the room. I saw this little piece of paper and on it it simply said " Be nice to people, for you never really know what they are going through". It struck my little heart funny, I cant even explain. I know this is something we all have heard a million times but reading it that day it brought new meaning to my life and how I viewed others. Sometimes in life I think we hear things and read things but sometimes it takes just the right moment for it to sink in or make an impact. So I leave you with that quote. Lets all start thinking of others and helping others before we judge or spew negative words at them. For we never really know what that person could be going through.

"When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through."


Lots of love your way, positive thoughts, kind words, and a hug with a smile through the hard times!!
KC

Happy in the Now

Ive been reading a lot about being happy in the now. Being happy in the current situations your in instead of saying I will be happy when so and so happens, or when I graduate college, or when I get married. This is me in a nut shell. Hahahaha! I have always said that and for the longest thought nothing was wrong with thinking that way. But I am here to say I feel like I have lost out on soooo much living/enjoying! And I am not here to cry it out I am just simply thinking it is time to start enjoying the NOW. Enjoy the process! What was that cool thing I heard the other day talking about enjoying the process.
Something about there is a reason to things! Like you cant pick a piece of fruit from a tree when it isnt ripe. You need to be patient and wait. There is a reasoning for it happening the way it is. You are meant to enjoy and delight yourself in the process while its taking place. God knows the path of your future...after all the best opportunity in the world may be two months away. You cant give up now. Youd miss you. Wait the wonder. Expect the unexpected!!
Look at me for example...The current job I have now I feel I am not even competent for and I feel like I dont know or have all of the knowledge for but the Lord placed me here for a reason, because its my major and what I am working for. I applied for a job here for two years! But I never had any hospital experience and didnt have a degree yet so no one would hire me. But look at where I am at now. In a position in the hospital of my choice and in the field I am in school for. You cant tell me that is not the Lord!! But what if I would have given up..? That last time sending in my application what if I would have said no I have sent in a million...why even bother.
YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN ITS RIGHT! Send it, TRY it, DO it, SIGN up for it, DREAM about it! Nothing never hurt you by trying.

I am the worlds worst at saying if I only made a little more money, if I could only graduate college, if I could only move out and be on my own...Id be happy. I know its HARD but lets start enjoying the process. Enjoy where the Lord is taking us. I guarantee there is a reason for the way things are happening. He sees the big picture when we see only a small small piece. So lets be happy in the small things. Even if its friends around us or people we work with or small things you enjoy...focus on that. GOOD THINGS ARE COMING!!!!!!

Happiness is the new Sad

I cant even start to tell you how sad this world is. How uninspiring it it, how hopeless it is, how alone it truly is. We live in a world today that "doing a nice thing" for someone is considered weird or odd. Helping others or being encouraging is the last thing people are these days. Its a selfish world we live in and its not the people I hate for being that way, because we all are that person. Its the helplessness of the world I hate. I dont look at the person for the fault I look at the person as a victim, we are all victims and we all need a little help or just a little care.

Its ALWAYS been my passion or dream to help people. To be and encourager, to inspire others to keep going on, to be a motivator. And at some point in my life I gave up on this dream. I quit caring...well I dont think I ever quit caring, I think life just took a toll on me. I wasnt happy, I was lost, and I never felt more alone. So I would ask myself how can I be all of those things I just listed when look at my life. Im not happy, im not this, im not that, and I have this holding me back, etc etc. Its not that I expected my life to be perfect or thought that it would be...Its FAR from it. But it made me realize that I just have obstacles to overcome and that you cant have great victories without having difficult battles and youll never have a great testimony without going through a few test. I quit blamming myself and saying I just wasnt made to be this type of a person with these dreams with my situation and finally understood that THOSE exact dreams I have were given to me for a reason. It wasnt by accident it was by purpose. God just doesnt equip you with something and not give you a way to use it or make it come true. For example, like I said earlier I have a passion for helping people, making a difference and one of the things I struggle with is fear and confidence a lot of times. I am too scared of what others think and scared of stepping or putting myself out there. Now do you think a person that has a desire or dreams of inspiring/helping people is suppose to be afraid of people and lack confidence....? Nooooooooo...haha! And that is the thing most people will talk their self out of what they are meant to do and I will tell you it is nothing but the enemy trying to destroy the Lords plans for you. He gave you each and every one of those dreams you have in you and I gaurantee he will show you a way to make them come true and to do them. It just might not be easy.

So I tell you...Follow your dream, desires, hopes, plans. They are yours for a REASON!

And make it a point to be nice or do something nice for someone today. I promise it will come back to you.

Instead of living in this sad hopeless world lets start changing it and make Happiness and Hope the new sad.

Worry Free..?

"Cast the whole of your care–all you anxieties, all your worries, all you concerns, once and for all-on Him; for He cares for you affectionately, and cares about you watchfully." There are three truths we can glean out of this one verse:



-God never intended for you to carry your own burdens.

-You have to do something when it comes to worry.
It takes humility to say, God, I give this problem to You because You can take care of it much better that I can.


-Only then will you fully release the weight of each problem to Him. Worry, like other negative thoughts, is actually a thief-stealing our peace, energy, time and joy.

Each time you have a negative thought, pull it down with prayer and declare you are NOT going to dewell on it anymore.


I have SO many worries and insecurities that A LOT of time I feel hopeless and like a T total wreck and think to myself...wow there has got to be something wrong with me. No one else could possibly feel like this or have the same thoughts as I do. It doesnt matter though. The only thing that counts is HE can change it and he will take care of it. Half the time I just worry and get upset over it and never give it over to the Lord. He wants us to cast our worries upon him though! He cares that much. I just need to do it and KNOW that it will get better and this feeling want last. Coming from someone that feels so defeated and hopeless I wish you a many worriless days =) OUR God will take care of it!

FEAR

F...False
E...Evidence
A...Appearing
R...Real

And friend once told me and I would love to share it with you....
If you're in a relationship with someone and you feel like you're afraid they will leave you, abandon you, cheat on you, hurt you.......and you feel it's stopping you from being happy! STOP....stop thinking about what you are afraid of....and love them with your whole heart! Let WISDOM guide your heart, not your FEAR!

Do it despite how you feel. DO IT SCARED

A Born Winner!

Tell yourself today that....

1. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. God made me in mind and he APPROVED of me, thats all I need to know. HE approved of me.

2. I am liked! People like me and want to be around me.

3. I am NOT alone. He is with me every second of the day.

4. I haven't ruined anything. Everything happens for a reason and God has a plan for me and my life.

5. You were never created to be average, you have the blood of a champion in you. He has equipped you with everything you need to succeed!!!!

6. In us we all have great things in us...we just might not know all of those wonderful thing...YET! We are all one of a kind and there are none others like us. He made us this way for a reason, ask him what he has for you.

7. No one can make me feel inferior unless I let them.